Monday, May 12, 2008


Haven't updated in a while. Haven't really felt the urge. Haven't felt the words. Every time I sit down to type, it just feels like bullshit. Heh.

There's not gonna be much to this update, either. Just don't really have much to say.

Or maybe I do. I'm simply not sure yet. I must admit, I've been hesitant about even writing about this here. And I'm not sure why.

I'm still trying to figure out how I feel about it. I mean, I've been perfectly clear about not wanting anymore babies. Cuzz I'm full of the selfish and what not. That, and I've been fairly certain that I could no longer have the babies. Heh.

Seems I was wrong about that. For the most part anyway. I can hardly bring myself to even type up that I had a miscarriage. Not sure if it's cuzz I'm not completely sure how I feel about it or what. What really sucks is that I didn't even realize I was pregnant until, like, the day before, so chances are really good that I'm the reason for the miscarriage. Heh.

So, that's that I guess. Maybe now I can get that hysterectomy...


Aunt Becky said...

Shit, dude. I'm so fucking sorry. That fucking sucks.

Cricket said...

It is hard regardless of the details, known or unknown. If it's not hard, then it becomes hard for not being hard. This is a no win.

Very sorry.