Saturday, November 18, 2006

ABCs for Cricket

It's a slow work day, so why not a meme?

[A is for age:] 26

[B is for beer of choice:] Sam Adams, Amber Boch (or bock maybe?)

[C is for career:] Emergency Medical Dispatcher

[D is for favorite Drink] Non-Booze- Iced Tea Booze- Red Headed Sluts

[E is for essential item you use everyday:] Hairbrush

[F is for favorite song at the moment:] Here's To Another by Smile Empty Soul

[G is for favorite game:] The boy and I play a lot of Clue Jr and Sorry. He's not as big a fan of Connect Four as I am, though. I LOVE that game!

[H is for hometown:] Ya know, I moved around so much as a kid that I consider Flint my hometown, even though I've only lived here for like 5 years

[I is for instruments you play:] I play piano by ear

[J is for favorite juice:] Lime

[K is for kids?:] one son (and one adult boy)

[L is for last kiss?:] Last night

[M is for marriage:] Did that already. Not sure if I'm gonna do that again

[N is for full name:] Heh. The only place my whole name is posted I believe is my poetry site and on If you're REALLY feeling froggy, go through these posts and see if you can find the link to the poetry site. I can't remember if I linked it or not, though, so good luck!

[O is for overnight hospital stays:] Over night when I was 15 for gal bladder removal and 3 nights when I had my son cuzz they said my insurance would pay for 3.

[P is for phobias:] Spiders, clowns, making phone calls, small places...

[Q is for quote:] "Believe me, nothing is trivial" Brandon Lee in The Crow

[R is for biggest regret:] I don't really regret any of the choices I've made, regardless of the consequences cuzz if I hadn't gone down the path I did, I'd be a different person and I'm not sure if I'd be ok with that. The only thing I wish could've been different is that the whole getting married thing could've been put on hold. I think if I'd had more time, I would've never gotten married. Hell, I was already pregnant when I got married, so I was gettin the kid regardless of whether or not I wore a ring! HA!

[S is for sports:] Hockey, football (GO BLUE! KICK OSU's ASS!), basketball

[T is for time you wake up:] Lately it's been 530AM

[U is for color underwear:] Yes.

[V is for vegetable you love:] Brocolli and LETTUCE!!! (I never spell that right) I heart lettuce. My mom used to yell at me when I was a kid cuzz I'd eat it heads at a time. o_O

[W is for worst habit:] I'll go with tearing myself apart. I'm always doing that.

[X is for x-rays you've had:] Head, arms, chest, legs, abdomen... My doctors used to tell me that I was going to glow in the dark when I got old

[Y is for yummy food you make:] Everyone loves my chicken soup, vegetable soup and hamburger casserole. OH! And my chili

[Z is for zodiac sign:] Capricorn
So, last week, I dropped $50 on concert tickets. Mind you that while I had $50, I could've been a lot more responsible and spent it on something needed for my family, rather than concert tickets. I figured it would be my way to reward myself a little for working damned near an entire month straight with only one day off. And besides, the 4 other people I bought tickets for would be paying me back on the night of the show. The concert was last night.

And I stayed home and slept.

See, one of the people that was going messaged me via MySpace cuzz I can get on it at work right now and I left my phone at home. I guess she'd had a migraine that had pretty much kicked her ass all day long. I'm talking puking and the whole nine yards. Ok. It sucks, but I can completely understand that shit like that happens. She had asked me to pick up a ticket for a guy she's wanted to go with us, but he never called her back. That's 2 people down, 2 to go. The other girl couldn't go cuzz while her parents had agreed to baby-sit, they were MIA, so she couldn't utilize their services. Ok, I've had that happen before, too. Again, I can completely understand that being something that would keep a person home. The last guy that was gonna go decided that he was too broke. That kinda pissed me off. I mean, I had already bought the ticket. If he couldn't give me the money for the ticket last night, I wouldn't have made it an issue. Hell, I had pretty much decided to tell him that I wouldn't take his money and that the ticket was his birthday present. So, other than not being able to drink, he really had no excuse. But, to top it all off, the girl with the headache had told him that she'd buy him some drinks and with the way I know the owners of the place we were gonna be, he wouldn't have had to worry about paying for a damned thing. 5 tickets were purchased and, at the last minute, I was the only one who'd be able to go.

I went home and told that boy who thinks he lives with me what happened and he immediately said he'd go with me. That threw me a bit cuzz he NEVER wants to go anywhere with me, especially to concerts. We tried to get some other people to go, but everyone was either sick or were already busy. In the end, I opted to just stay home and go to bed. Same thing I've been doing for the last month.

I guess it's not really that big of a deal, except that I'm out $40. Oh, and the pesky fact that staying home when I have concert tickets, even if it means that I go alone, DOES NOT HAPPEN. That's not me. If I have concert tickets, it usually means that I reallyreallyreally want to see the band their for. I had been looking forward to this concert for a very long time. And, in the end, I offered no fight. I simply laid down.

I've lost myself somewhere along the way. I've suspected that for a while, but last night made it incredibly clear just how much of myself I've lost...